my heart just wants, it wants, maybe, uhm, idk…

I grab you by the rope and hold it really strong

But if u ask me why

I think I would just lie

Never want you, never let you free 

Writing you, calling you, wanna be with me?

Wanna see myself with you but always close my eyes

Never want to be with you, why can‘t I say goodbye

Holding your hand, breathing on your neck

Imagine all the things I‘d do 

with him and not with you

I think I like the way you make 

me feel with touching all my lips

Spelling out some words I know, whose aren‘t meant for you

I love you, maybe do but maybe don’t, but fuck hate me, hate you?

Loving all the things you did and do and always will

Hoping that one day he comes and acts like he was you

His smell his touch 

his voice his eyes 

I‘m craving him so much

To be with you and not with him

I think I‘m sad enough 

Fuck your heart and fuck your mind

Sometimes I‘d rather be just blind

I fear the fear of loving you not him just you not him 

He‘s in my heart, will be a part and never leave my soul

Would beauty love the beast, not knowing his worst, his whole?